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It’s been a difficult and different week, the majority of which I have slept through; save for visits to the loo and drinking squash – I have learnt my lesson about dehydration and headaches!
I know I am down and I know that awaiting the outcome of my ESA medical is contributing to my mood to a lesser or greater extent, but I have slept about 18 hours on and off every day this week.......
My partner tried to motivate me to get up yesterday, but a few words of ‘I’ll try’ from me were enough to see her off. I did manage one hour in front of the television with the family last evening before sneaking back to bed.
Firstly, I have found that sleeping so much has relieved the nightmares, so whilst I have still got up at 5 – 6 am, motivated by everyone else being asleep and I have had the usual dreams/nightmares fixated on escaping, lack of control and work colleagues, they haven’t woken me up in a confused and very disturbed state as previously. So that is a real benefit of sleeping too much. Secondly, it has been great avoidance, I am so short tempered about noise, especially the television being on from the moment a family member is up until gone midnight, it is better, I think, for me to escape to my bed. Thirdly the best way to manage an Ulcerative Colitis attack is to sleep through it as much as possible as that means I eat less and my bowels seem more settled whilst I sleep.
However, it is now Friday, I got up at 6am and had my coffee and visits to the loo, watched bit of cricket, got seriously bothered by the likeness of one of the commentators to an ex work college, realised I stunk, so I have had a bath and got clean clothes on, I am doing this blog and am going to try and stay up today.
So is sleeping as avoidance, when in a depressed state OK?
If you can get yourself out of it within a week, then YES I think so, at least in my case anyway – but hey I am no expert just a patient!
7th December 2012